fine.

ok...i think this film looks good.




and i like these lyrics:
shawn mcdonald - have you ever.

Have you ever wanted to be someone else
Have you ever wanted just to be someone
Have you ever wanted to reach your dreams
Have you ever wanted life to be more than it seems
I have tasted of a love so wide
That it stops all my time
I have tasted of a love so deep
That it blows my mind
Have you ever wanted to reach up and touch the sky
Have you ever wanted to pack it up and say good-bye
Have you ever wanted someone to care
Have you ever wanted someone to be there
He is sweet, He is sweet
What your looking for
Is my sweet, sweet Jesus
What You're looking for
Is my sweet Lord

ok...ok....

i'll update my blog (for reals) when eric updates his.......

until then: moooooo.........

surfing.

i made my frist attempt at surfing after i finished my TESOL class. it was pretty dang fun. i think i'll try it again. these are the few pics i have. and...yes. the waves weren't great that day. but...at least i didn't drown or get eaten by a shark. i think i'd prefer drowning to being eaten by a shark. what about you?

note...

i added pictures from the class i took this summer a few posts down.

it's all about the C's...

communication.
committment.

that is basically what relationships boil down to, isn't it? i have leaps and bounds to grow in both of these categories...as most people do. i realize how often i feel things.... but do not express them to others. why? some of it has to do w/ conditioning or the environment grown up in. but, i think it's silly to blame everything upon our environment.

but...let's cut to the chase....it's because we're selfish. we want to save face. we don't want to look like fools. we don't want to tell the other person that we care about them. we don't want to tell the other person they did something great. or we like that quality about them. if we told them we cared about them (and dare i say LOVE them)...it may show us dependent upon them in some odd way. does dependency show weakness?
worse yet...what if they don't reciprocate? you don't want to tell another you like them unless you're fairly certain they have a thing going for you.

what if someone else tells you they care about you? how should one respond? "thank you."? a trite, "me too"? i don't think we express our feelings to each other much. and...when it happens it feels slightly odd. perhaps that is why we have become a culture that cannot accept compliments. you tell someone you like their hair and they tell you who cut it. you like their shirt...well, it was on sale at this store. dang...just say thank you! (or...how DOES one respond??)

how i wish i would have taken time in my life to express my care and love for others who are now no longer in my life. i want people to know how i really feel about them. i want to accept peoples compliments and believe what they say. how come i push away peoples comments?

that covers the communication aspect...as for the committment part...one should probably not speak to me about that for another year or two.

alas...it's always easier to desire to share your true feelings when the task isn't staring you directly in the face. i want to be open enough and secure enough to lay myself out there and express my care and concern for someone without being afraid of their response....or lack of response. why are we scared to be vulnerable? why am i scared of being dependent? what crap is that!? my security is in something far greater than what anyone on this earth could ever offer! i shouldn't look for it from other people. and therein lies our problem, i believe. where does our security come from?

**this may warrant an additonal blog upon how to understand someones words when they no longer are in your life. this...i have no idea how to handle. and probably a core reason why compliments are pushed away. b/c...who the heck can we believe? but...a different entry...at a later date when God somehow reveals the answer to me.****

God help us be encouraging and loving towards each other... may we maintain healthy relationships. may we honor others above ourselves. show us how. i fail too often. convict us...and change us.

music speaks the soul

Waterdeep - Lonely Sometimes Lyrics


I woke up from a strange rain

And it was dreaming outside

I rolled over for the telephone

I thought I'd call someone

Tell them I dreamed I had died

But I know that I was all alone

I just get lonely sometimes

I want someone to take away my grief

I just get lonely sometimes

I want to wake up in the morning with someone

Lying next to me who I can turn to for relief

I just get lonely sometimes

But I know I just need You

I probably slept in a bed of bitterness

That's why I woke up this way

That's probably why I'm in this lonesome hole

I probably got to needing everything

And needing it today

That's probably why I play this lonely role

But I know I know I know I just need You


More Waterdeep Lyrics...

soliders.

perhaps some of you haven't heard of this pastor dude named driscoll. you probably should. this is an interesting video to begin with.

did i post these before?

have you guys seen these?
it's a parody of the mac commercials (obviously). The premise being that Christ-followers think they are cooler than Christians. It's slightly funny...b/c it's true. Although...i don't think mac users are better. i DO think they they THINK they are better. but they're not.

you should probably check this out too...

and let me know your score.

you should probably check this out...

for my soccer lover friends.
http://sportsillustrated.cnn.com/2007/soccer/08/02/manu.recruit.ap/