quite busy have i been this past semester. it's currently finals week at vanguard...where i am currently attending. after a variety of considerations and quite a bit of processing and discernment we have decided to suspend attending vanguard for the upcoming semester. (we...b/c definitely a joint decision b/t dan and i). i am in the process of applying to various psyd programs across the country. i am not yet certain what this means. i know very few things at this point. want to know what i know?
1. i don't like living in california. dan assures me that it's southern california i don't like...but i'm struggling to remain positive about the incessant sun.
2. the vanguard program isn't what i want... the classes are too easy. i used to feel bad about saying that..but now i embrace it. it's trite. why waste my money? i could attend a psyd program for 2 years...be challenged...and walk away with a masters which will allow me to provide psychotherapy (counseling) to others.
3. i'm way to stretchd between things. working with taxing kids... kids that never do what you ask... getting spit on... hit... pooped... farted... i'm getting tired of it. love it...but it's stressful. so, i work at the school from 8-12....do direction at biola a few times a week...and then off to class... and then on the weekends doing stuff with the church and youth kids. and...being recently married which is a significant transition.
4. i need and crave space.
5. i hate driving in traffic...and i spend a bit over 2 hours in the car driving from home to work to home to school 3 days a week. boo.
6. i hate loud neighbors...and am very aware i used the word, "hate." i contemplate if our neighbor is deaf and thats why every form of electronic noise must shake our light fixtures. yes...it may be that bad.
7. did i mention i dislike like living here? and feel incredibly clausterphobic?
8. marrying someone whose family lives far from your own.... is nice and awful all at the same time.
9. i am learning to trust my gut... and listen to myself.
10. i am quite anti-social at the moment... but think it's b/c i have no space even for myself to regroup...so i hope next semester offers me some solace in this regard.
11. studying for the GRE ups your vocab....
12. i took a math class too many moons ago.
i don't even know what that list was for anymore...but i kept adding to it.
this is perhaps why you haven't heard from me for awhile. i feel i have nothing witty to say...though my heart longs for it.
oh...did i mention that i now own all the seasons of friends? 1.5 more to watch and i'll have watched every single episode of friends. i love that show. yes...it taps into things my soul enjoys.
i'm sitting in class now...which reveals how much i am caring to finish well. :) ok, i do care...but, it doesn't require much of my attention. i feel like i am still quite invested in the class...and able to create a list that may or may not make sense. who cares!?
so...that's me. expect to hear more from me in the upcoming months after i finish finals, get a break from work, take the GRE, write my application essays to grad schools, and sleep.
oh...and the schools i am applying for are here in the LA area, oregon and chicago. oregon is currently at the top of the list. partly b/c it offers space...and prettiness...what my heart is longing for.
ok...i'm off.
1. i don't like living in california. dan assures me that it's southern california i don't like...but i'm struggling to remain positive about the incessant sun.
2. the vanguard program isn't what i want... the classes are too easy. i used to feel bad about saying that..but now i embrace it. it's trite. why waste my money? i could attend a psyd program for 2 years...be challenged...and walk away with a masters which will allow me to provide psychotherapy (counseling) to others.
3. i'm way to stretchd between things. working with taxing kids... kids that never do what you ask... getting spit on... hit... pooped... farted... i'm getting tired of it. love it...but it's stressful. so, i work at the school from 8-12....do direction at biola a few times a week...and then off to class... and then on the weekends doing stuff with the church and youth kids. and...being recently married which is a significant transition.
4. i need and crave space.
5. i hate driving in traffic...and i spend a bit over 2 hours in the car driving from home to work to home to school 3 days a week. boo.
6. i hate loud neighbors...and am very aware i used the word, "hate." i contemplate if our neighbor is deaf and thats why every form of electronic noise must shake our light fixtures. yes...it may be that bad.
7. did i mention i dislike like living here? and feel incredibly clausterphobic?
8. marrying someone whose family lives far from your own.... is nice and awful all at the same time.
9. i am learning to trust my gut... and listen to myself.
10. i am quite anti-social at the moment... but think it's b/c i have no space even for myself to regroup...so i hope next semester offers me some solace in this regard.
11. studying for the GRE ups your vocab....
12. i took a math class too many moons ago.
i don't even know what that list was for anymore...but i kept adding to it.
this is perhaps why you haven't heard from me for awhile. i feel i have nothing witty to say...though my heart longs for it.
oh...did i mention that i now own all the seasons of friends? 1.5 more to watch and i'll have watched every single episode of friends. i love that show. yes...it taps into things my soul enjoys.
i'm sitting in class now...which reveals how much i am caring to finish well. :) ok, i do care...but, it doesn't require much of my attention. i feel like i am still quite invested in the class...and able to create a list that may or may not make sense. who cares!?
so...that's me. expect to hear more from me in the upcoming months after i finish finals, get a break from work, take the GRE, write my application essays to grad schools, and sleep.
oh...and the schools i am applying for are here in the LA area, oregon and chicago. oregon is currently at the top of the list. partly b/c it offers space...and prettiness...what my heart is longing for.
ok...i'm off.
posted by lp at 10:27 PM
1 Comments:
So, ya, it's been a long time since I've read and commented on your blog. As it's been a long time since I've invested in my own. I'm hoping to rectify that asap. Anyway, I liked your list. It made me smile. I think you should leave California. I mean, who REALLY wants to live there? Really. :-)
I think Oregon for sure is a good choice as I have friends there, and I found it also to be lovely. However, Chicago is also a good choice because, again, I have friends there. Basically my bias is within the realm of "possible places I am more likely to visit, thus would have a better chance of seeing your face".
I miss you. Just fyi. I'd like to meet this new Liz...the new, California, counselor, married Liz. I'm just sayin...
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