silly me.

so. yah, i don't know how to post pictures on this blog. nor do i know how to change my profile pic.

i realize...i'm not that great of a writer.
i realize...i'm pretty not motivated to study sometimes.
i realize...i don't like having a cold.
and...i'm pretty much procrastinating doing work right now.
i am slightly behind right now for my online studies.
opps.
um...i also am coming off a weekend that was great for my soul.
i feel like i am beginning to be myself again. was i not for all my time in ames? in some respects, no. i wasn't. isn't that sad? last night i had people over b/c miss debra was here to spend the weekend w/ me. you know what? i had fun. yes. fun. i laughed. i played games. i love my debra. fun just seeps from her pores....why can't i be fun like this? i'm glad God created her as he did. she's just simply amazing. i am missing her tonight. but, i realized it's worth it. even though i'm not sure when i'll see her again...and it pained my heart as she pulled away this morning.... that pain is worth the friendship that we have. the pain of being separated. i am thankful for her as a friend.

God...be near to me tonight. oh, may your truths penetrate the hearts of your children. we long to know you in deeper ways. may we hold to your commands and seek to obey you as your love fills us up. may your spirit guide us...may we say no to the desires of our flesh, but yes to your spirit. give us discernment. heal my broken heart......as only you can.