thanks.

i am leaving finally. in a few days. tomorrow is my last day of work. officially. i may go in another day just b/c i don't know what to do w/ myself if i do not! seriously. that's pathetic but true. i don't want to get used to being lazy. i actually enjoy working and being productive. it's a good feeling. it's not a hot day of hard work...but, it's mental hard work. i don't think i could lay around all day and not exercise my mind. i am thankful for jobs/oppurtunities to exercise my mind. maybe i can learn how to spell someday. maybe.

tonight...i sat out on the porch. perfect weather. perfect night. w/ three people i have become close to in the last few months. ahh...how amazing. we drank some wine...smoked some cigars. a good night. and because i am leaving...they all said something they had learned from me and my life. that meant alot. really. i can't believe some of the things said. it touched my heart deeply. i know that anything good seen me is christ working in me. seriously. i'm not saying that b/c it's the right thing to say. but, b/c i know it's true. when i work w/ my own effort...it doesn't last. i can't persevere. but, i know Christ is working out stuff in my heart. none of us have arrived. none of us will. but, God continues to work out things in our lives.

thanks for that.