joy.
restore to me the joy of my salvation.
why do we get drug down by silly things? oh...what silliness. how much joy we should take in life. how much God has graced us with? Life. Breath. Everything. We deserve death...separation...but, we are allowed life. and we are put through circumstances which seem difficult...but ultimately point us more towards God. Refines our lives and minds so we can understand God a bit more. I am thankful for the "difficult" times as of late.
i don't know what the next few months are goin to hold for me. i feel so great right now...but, i could easily begin to dislike my job immensely...feel overwhelmed w/ my workload....and...my joy will be lost. i could begin to feel like i am wasting my life and i will never ever get married and thus my life will be incomplete. what crap.
you know what? i am enjoying being single. did you hear that? i enjoy it. who else gets to sleep in a bit on a saturday morning...take a hot shower....go to a cafe and waste away hours reading and listneing to music? not many. single people. that's the answer. i want to have someone to love. and i just prayed that God would allow me to have someone to really love selflessly and to share my life w/ completely. but...i don't DESERVE that...or NEED that for joy. it's a definately a want. a desire. perhaps a God given desire, but it's not required. ya know?
so...these are my thoughts for the moment.
also, my thought is that i am done playing games. i don't really want to be in a relationship or play around w/ someone about being in a relationship! i want things to be straightforward. real. decide. commit. this is what i want. no games. i prayed for that too.
Oh...that God's will would be done in my life.
peace.joy.love...all in Christ.
why do we get drug down by silly things? oh...what silliness. how much joy we should take in life. how much God has graced us with? Life. Breath. Everything. We deserve death...separation...but, we are allowed life. and we are put through circumstances which seem difficult...but ultimately point us more towards God. Refines our lives and minds so we can understand God a bit more. I am thankful for the "difficult" times as of late.
i don't know what the next few months are goin to hold for me. i feel so great right now...but, i could easily begin to dislike my job immensely...feel overwhelmed w/ my workload....and...my joy will be lost. i could begin to feel like i am wasting my life and i will never ever get married and thus my life will be incomplete. what crap.
you know what? i am enjoying being single. did you hear that? i enjoy it. who else gets to sleep in a bit on a saturday morning...take a hot shower....go to a cafe and waste away hours reading and listneing to music? not many. single people. that's the answer. i want to have someone to love. and i just prayed that God would allow me to have someone to really love selflessly and to share my life w/ completely. but...i don't DESERVE that...or NEED that for joy. it's a definately a want. a desire. perhaps a God given desire, but it's not required. ya know?
so...these are my thoughts for the moment.
also, my thought is that i am done playing games. i don't really want to be in a relationship or play around w/ someone about being in a relationship! i want things to be straightforward. real. decide. commit. this is what i want. no games. i prayed for that too.
Oh...that God's will would be done in my life.
peace.joy.love...all in Christ.
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