so.
i can make decisions.
i feel good about this one.
now i just have to pull of the logistics of it. that sucks.
i hope the classes aren't full... cuz that would be a bummer.

living at home. am i a loser? or wise? maybe....both?
i dunno. i am blessed to have a great family. i can enjoy them. i don't have to feel bad about that. why do we feel we must move on and leave our family to be healthy? that's such an american concept! i think there is a healthy distance that needs to be had....emotionally/spiritually/physically from family. to make sure decisions are made for the right reasons, etc. i think i am healthily on my own. distanced from my parents in a healthy way...but still able to enjoy them. to let them love me. thanks for a blessing me w/ a great family... i am undeserving. they support me in what i want...and give me Godly advice. that's pretty darn rare and sweet.

i want my pursuit of education to be for sound reasons. an investment in my future...and the future of the people who will be impacted by my life. i realize.... i must take what i learn and integrate into my life. not enough to just KNOW....i want my life to be changed!

change my life....change my heart.....

so many thoughts...and i chose boring ones. but, i must sleep so i can get up and sit at a computer all day tomorrow. wishing i could be somewhere else.

working is getting harder and harder....as one of the main people i work w/ are continually in a bad mood. sometimes she just storms out of the office leaving everyone on edge. you never want to send a call her way cuz she'll be upset. always complaining. what a drag! sometimes i can't wait to leave....as i feel i slowly die as each day passes by. extreme...but, true??

keep my heart soft.

continue to guide my steps.

this is my prayer.