negative.

also.

i want to stop the negative attitude i've seen so much in my life. i'm finished w/ it. w/ the help of Jesus of course. i need to be reminded when it emerges. it's so sly sometimes.

it often robs me of joy in Christ. joy of what God is doing in the whole world. often this year someone would say something they saw God do...and i'd be like, 'yah right...you just are crying out for attention...you don't even really have a passion for Jesus...if you did your life would look like this.' how much crap is that?

a whole heap of sin. it smells terrible. and, it hurt me.... and robbed God of glory...which hurts the body of Christ. so...forgive me. i want to be done w/ that negativity. i want to respond in joy for all that i hear you doing in the world Father. for that to be my first response....

overwhelm me w/ you.

may i walk in freedom and joy.

i long for that....alot.

(that is why being done w/ job...and having freedom of school/part time job/flexibilty/ sounds so appealing!) maybe i'm just lazy. hmm. good thought. it's true. i'm lazy.