to know. to be known.

if you have lived and loved at all.... think you will agree that these are the two basic needs of humans. i think, 'to be known,' should (or neccisarily) comes first. I feel like we need to feel known before we are empowered to know others. the ironic part is that...it's rare that we feel known. so, basically, we are all a bunch of people sitting around waiting to be known.

but, we are known. someone already knows us. he created us. dang it. may we accept his love. understand that love. be overwhelmed with that love. and take that energy we get from knowing we are known and invest in others who are hurting that don't understand they are already known.

i think being in a place where i knew absolutely no one.... has given me oppurtunity to explore many different avenues of thought in regards to knowing people...and getting to know people...and the need to be known.

i definately struggled w/ longing to revert and depend upon friendships already established back home...b/c those were safe. i felt known. so, i forced myself to rely upon relationship out here. it was neccesary to be fully invested out here.

who gets the chance to do this? i think it's quite a rare occurrence in our culture...and even within human history... to be able to move somewhere far away and not know anyone. especially as a young female. were we created for this? is it healthy? do i possess the strength to do such a thing? no...i think not. thus...a deeper dependence upon God is cultivated. i can't depend upon others that know me...b/c no one does out here.

so...basically...i could write a post on a bunch of different topics within this post...but, that's a little tap into my thoughts tonight...now i must go b/c the library is closing. i'm a nerd. yes. a nerd and a jerk.