kids.

funny story. so. nearly a year ago i began to freak out. i didn't know if i wanted to have kids. i didn't know if i wanted to be a wife. actually, if i must be honest, i didn't think i would be a good mother or a good wife. i'm the type that would just rather not try at something than fail. pride...!? yah. but...wanna hear something sweet? God has really put me in situations to be around kids. and all sorts of kids. sweet kids, cute kids, mean kids, bratty kids, bad kids, special need kids, ugly kids, smart kids, any sort. you know what? i do want one. i've gained confidence in disciplining...and loving...and caring. i love my little niece so much. and my little charge at school. even taking into account the trip to the hospital b/c of his jaws of death. (ok...a bit over dramatic). so...i was just thinking how much has changed in my life the past year...and all the things God has taught me through difference circumstances. and answering different prayers from many, many months ago. again...more answered prayer. go get on your knees.

i realized how much more fun pictures make blogs. so i am going to post one.



this is abbie. she got a new coat but she can't move at all in it. i found it funny. i put it on her and all she could do was move her right arm. seriously....nothing else. so i just stood and waved back at her. maybe i like kids b/c they make me laugh.

ps. at the beginning of the post i said, 'funny story.' it wasn't really that funny. my apologies.