doorbell.
the dang doorbell won't stop ringing. we just had a firefighter visit us. my mom deterred him w/ M&M's. speaking of my mom... i went to get a flu shot w/ my mom at the school i work at. my mother knew the two girls (they were at the school getting shots as well) b/c they were practicums last year at the school she works. i had always assumed they were older than me. why?
1. because they have 'real' jobs
2. because they are married and talk about their house, dog, meals the cook, etc.
They are the same age as me. i just feel like a kid b/c i live w/ my parents now. since moving home i have reverted back to being a kid. i dislike that about me right now. another reason to move away next semester. i've lived at home two months...and it appears as if i will be here another two months. dang...i love living at home...but, i don't as well. question: the only reason i DON"T like living at home ... is b/c i feel i'm a loser and should be married already? hmm. after talking w/ those two girls...that's how i feel. everytime they said, 'and my husband said this to me...' my stomach churned a little bit. maybe i feel inadequate or less of a woman b/c a man is not pursuing me. maybe i'm just jealous. maybe...i just think too much and should just enjoy this 'transition' period in my life. yes....that's it.
dang...now batman is at the door.
1. because they have 'real' jobs
2. because they are married and talk about their house, dog, meals the cook, etc.
They are the same age as me. i just feel like a kid b/c i live w/ my parents now. since moving home i have reverted back to being a kid. i dislike that about me right now. another reason to move away next semester. i've lived at home two months...and it appears as if i will be here another two months. dang...i love living at home...but, i don't as well. question: the only reason i DON"T like living at home ... is b/c i feel i'm a loser and should be married already? hmm. after talking w/ those two girls...that's how i feel. everytime they said, 'and my husband said this to me...' my stomach churned a little bit. maybe i feel inadequate or less of a woman b/c a man is not pursuing me. maybe i'm just jealous. maybe...i just think too much and should just enjoy this 'transition' period in my life. yes....that's it.
dang...now batman is at the door.
posted by lp at 3:42 PM
4 Comments:
Man, I wish batman would come see me.
You're not a loser. You're only, what 23? 24? If you're a loser, then I am a big one, seeing as I am 26 and haven't really had a real relationship ever. AND, I don't think I am loser, so THUS we're not losers. Make sense? People have different paths. Those girls' paths were to graduate, get "real" jobs, and get married happily ever after. My path is very different. Some people think I won't really be starting my life until I am almost 30 (if I come back to the states after 2 years in Ukraine and possibly go to school for 2 years). What is 30? Nothing. I'm pretty sure I will be a silly, yet mature, 21-year-old the rest of my life. I say, I have already led a full life, filled with "real" work, relationships, and purpose happily ever after. Your path is very different as well. Praise God for the lack of normalsy in our lives! How boring would that be! :-)
amen. preach it.
1st - You don't want any guy to persue you. You only want one peticular guy. So, you logic is circular... and annoying.
2nd - Often times the status of "being married" and having children and having security is a flippin' cruch, especially in the midwest. Doesn't anyone realize people are dying? I often see young mothers gather in HOA right after they drop their children off at school. They gaggle. They don't care that anyone is dying for the world is very tiny. I sometimes too am envious of their lives, their "maturity," but reality slaps me in the face and says "wake up."
/slap
No need for physical abuse!!
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