growing.

i have this fear of reverting back to ways i felt throughout last spring. just an overwhelming sense of unsettledness. (i'm fairly certain that's not a word). I've been meditating on these two thoughts:

"Fear not --> for i am with you"
and
"Do not be dismayed --> for i am your God."

what would it mean if i internalized that the one who made the world and everything in it....is my God? the one i submit my life to and attempt to live my life for.....is my God? would i fear things anymore? would i feel the need to prove myself? would i have fear? would i worry? obviously....i don't internalize or believe that God is who he says he is...or i would not have these incessant fears and worries about life. i want that faith of david who refuses the armor offered by saul and simply walks to face goliath with what he knows. i'm sure others watching thought David foolish for not taking the neccesary precautions by wearing the armor. but, if david had worn the armor....let's face it. he would have been squished by the giant dude. david believed and knew that the one on his side was incredibly more powerful than goliath. it's not like he needed to prove something....but, it was God who came through. God was showing himself and his power to all who were watching in that moment in time and for the ages to come. why do i fear the future? oh...to simply trust in what i do know and step out without attempting to put on all the things others seem to push upon me.