wrong.

have you ever believed something so deeply.... something which began to shape so drastically your understanding of yourself and the world around you ... and then realized it was false?

but, then you can't seem to rip yourself away from those pieces that want to attach once again to that thing which was once so familiar... and that thing which once felt so right.
the problem remains that it wasn't true.

the problem increases because other people around you believe it's true...and continue to believe it's true. you want to scream at them that it's a lie. but, it doesn't even matter.

i'm pissed right now.
it's not true...these things that others say.
but, certain people believe them and take them to heart.
it angers me that they believe these lies about themselves.
i want them to realize the wrong they have done.
and to actually let themselves feel the deep pain stemming from their wrong.
but they don't.
and it makes me mad.

stop pushing away those guilty feelings.
because you're guilty....and you know it.

what am i talking about?
who cares. it's all futile.