wee.

the wee hours of the morning do make the defenses weaken.
the defense mechanisms that help you repress certain thoughts are no longer readily available as you lay awake on your bed. perhaps that is why i stay up late with attempts to busy myself so i can tire myself with the hopes to loose consciousness before my head hits the pillow. if i cannot...it is extremely dangerous. who knows where my mind could wander to. but alas. the God is within those thoughts...and knows the deepest things i don't even want to think of. i think that's suppose to be a comfort. sometimes it is. depends on the hour and the tiredness factor.