time travel.

have you ever wanted to go back in time?
i do.
right now.
i want to relive my childhood.
wouldn't that be spectacular?
i was looking through some old photos. i was cute. what happened? i think i just emerged last year from my awkward phase. it lasted a decade for me. i looked at the pics of me with curly hair and a mischeiveous little smile. carefree. loved. warm. pure. happy. it was before i realized the heartache life dishes up. when does one realize that life isn't perfect? when the kid laughs at you on the playground in preschool? or...when your sister pushes you off the swingset when you're two? or...when you have to eat your vegetables at the table? or...when the first crush you have doesn't even know you exist? when does one realize it?

i slightly feel like i've become more worldly in the past few months. but, perhaps i have just become more intuned w/ life in general. hmm. i dunno.

check out this photo from a bike trip long ago. our families used to pack up the car w/ camping gear and load the bikes atop the mini and head out for a weekend of fun. i think this was the beginning of my awkward phase. my dad has looked the same since he got married when he was 18. punk. kendra is standing at the end of the table. me and her are friends now. she's pretty cool. we didn't talk much back then. i am not sure why. maybe we did...and i just don't remember. whops.