life.
life. it's odd when you think about it.
relationships aren't the most important thing in life.
but, i see family as being extremely important.
hmm...how do i reconcile this?
after being in minneapolis a few hours i realized this christmas will be much different than past holidays. my grandma is extremely weak and can hardly get from the hospital bed to a chair where she sits to eat. my grandpa and aunt and uncle are at home sick with the flu, and tomorrow is christmas eve. it's craziness! most holidays everyone sits around, talks, play games, watch tv, laugh, go to a movie, shop.... this holiday is already much different. i'm realizing that... not everything is about me. why do i make it? forgive me. may i look much to others....and want the best for others. (in a healthy way...right??)
i can't really blog well anymore.
i pretty much have lost heart and desire because....
1. no one really reads it....so why post anything.
2. maybe people read it....so maybe i shouldn't be as straightforward as i like.
3. it's a waste of time. (but...really it takes me a minute to put up each post).
shall i continue?
relationships aren't the most important thing in life.
but, i see family as being extremely important.
hmm...how do i reconcile this?
after being in minneapolis a few hours i realized this christmas will be much different than past holidays. my grandma is extremely weak and can hardly get from the hospital bed to a chair where she sits to eat. my grandpa and aunt and uncle are at home sick with the flu, and tomorrow is christmas eve. it's craziness! most holidays everyone sits around, talks, play games, watch tv, laugh, go to a movie, shop.... this holiday is already much different. i'm realizing that... not everything is about me. why do i make it? forgive me. may i look much to others....and want the best for others. (in a healthy way...right??)
i can't really blog well anymore.
i pretty much have lost heart and desire because....
1. no one really reads it....so why post anything.
2. maybe people read it....so maybe i shouldn't be as straightforward as i like.
3. it's a waste of time. (but...really it takes me a minute to put up each post).
shall i continue?
posted by lp at 9:04 PM
4 Comments:
ur crazy.
I think this "thing" is healing to your soul. Stop pouting.
Dear friend-writer-anonymous,
Your writing is kind of an island of sanity and beautiful introspection, and I always love to read it. I'll be sad if you discontinue it, but you have to go where jah love leads you.
what thing do you speak of eric?
I think he was referring to the blog, just a thought. Don't stop blogging! I like reading it. I like how you're so straight-forward. I like how you spit the truth, the joys, the sorrows, the questions...most of which we are thinking ourselves, but are too big of pansies to talk about it/write about it ourselves. I also like what texas ranger said. THUS, ditto.
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