figures.

i spent my whole first day off work...in bed. sick. i thought i was going to die. i don't do well with pain i guess. i got myself thinking i had cancer of the stomach and would never again keep food down. but...it's now 11pm...and i'm feeling slightly better. i blacked out today..which is sometimes a neat experience. have you ever blacked out?? it's like...your body is quickly shutting down but your brain continues to work super fast. i kept thinking... 'stand up...blink...am i blinking? walk up the stairs, no...don't go on the stairs b/c if you fall down it will hurt... but just get to a bed so you can fall onto the bed...but maybe if i just sit down here i won't hit anything...' and i thought of all these things instantly.

crazy.

got word tonight one of our family friends has run out of options in his fight for cancer. actually...we had known this for a few weeks now. but they were attempting one last thing. it has not taken affect. he has days to live. pray for him and his family this christmas season. tomorrow his grown kids arrive to spend christmas. may they enjoy these last days together. my mom told me tonight she is not ready to deal with this part of life...and she knows as she grows older she faces more and more of these situations.