one night.

one evening in the middle of march...i walked in the dark (pic take in day) w/ some friends back to their house. the moon was up. the road was gravel and definitely not scooped. in fact...it was that slushy type of mixture. and some of the puddles were huge and if stumbled into water would come up mid-calf. cold. then it began to rain.

i laughed. we laughed. it was cold and miserable. but once we arrived home hot water was put on the stove and we ate some stale cookies. we couldn't always understand each other...but we laughed. we loved deeply. i'll not forget the time i spent in ukraine for that short week last march. it was simply amazing in so many ways. many points were drive home to my heart. how i felt about ones i loved whom i had left and longed to share my other love, ukriane, with. how i saw the two local churches in america and ukraine be encouraged and pray together. i saw one body! brought together by the one thing which binds us all together...christ's love.

all that 10/40, perspectives, missions crap was mumble jumble in light of....reality. authenticity. love. i don't know the right answer in all of the 'reaching the world w/ Christ ASAP so the new millinium will begin.' i realized recently my theology differs from many. perhaps i will never agree. but, whose to say my opinion is right? we are probably never going to agree. dare i say it? the phrase, 'unreached people' makes me want to puke. maybe i don't have the heart for missions. at least not the way the american church is pushing it.

God...may your will be done...
i feel we are making a mess of things.
heal broken hearts... may we expereince you.
may this impassion us to share you with whoever we encounter....
wherever we go in this world.




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i have one more paper to write for a clas. it's basically ripping apart this dude named jack deere. deere supports the idea that miracuolous events still occur...and most of the church doesn't see it because we hide behind scripture to state these events don't occur anymore. i am not going to be able to write this paper. it's obvious the school doesn't think deere's arguements stand up to scripture. but...i don't know. am i too nice? i don't have such a critical mind.
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