i haven't posted for awhile. does it seem i often begin my posts with that statement? it seems so. i just have lost heart in posting. my heart seems so full, yet empty, all at the same time. it causes me confusion in how to post. shall i report on the fun things i am doing? or perhaps the sadness that often accompanies my heart each passing day? life is a definite mixture of both right now....and i'm unsure of what is winning at any given moment.
i shall post a few pictures of the fun things i was truly blessed to be able to do.
this is a picture from the getty. it's a museum that is open to the public (free). it was in malibu, off the coast. a quaint place with some peaceful gardens and walkways.
dan and i at the angels game. five dollar tickets! it was quite fun. though, i got annoyed that everyone obeyed the stupid signs that told them to clap and get louder. lets think for ourselves people!
a picture of the angels game. we also went to a dodgers game. we decided we like going to the game in anaheim better. we may be becoming orange county snobs. the stadium was nicer and easier to get to. we're totally not diehard fans....so if we got to choose to be fans of a local team....it would be the angels.
dan and his friend steven. he's studying to become a priest. he's a pretty funny guy. he may have had too much sugar and so was a bit on the loopy side at times. but, i really enjoy him. he's a good friend to dan.
my good friend, eunice, got married! eunice was one of my first (of four) roommates in california. faith (one of the other roommates) is on the far right in this picture. she's been dating the guy since i met her....and i was so happy to see them make the joining together official.
dan and i went to the beach quite a bit. i went surfing once (complete w/ an awesome wetsuit). it was amazing to watch the sunset while i was in the water. i really really loved all aspects of surfing. dan is a great help as i am sometimes still frightend of the powerful waves. other times we just laid out on the beach for a few hours and jumped in the water every now and then to cool down. i began to see why people like southern california.
we went to san luis obispo where dan went to school (at cal poly). we stayed at his professors house and went for a hike, walked to the beach and ate some good food. it's a great place to get away from the busyness of the city.
this is a professional soccer game at the rose bowl in pasadena. pretty sweet.... it was loud, full and fast paced. dan and his father thought it was boring....but, i found it quite interesting. i am beginning to like soccer much more than other sports. it's way more fun to watch. i went with dan, his dad, uncle and cousin.
i look excited....but only because i was finally finished with my two full days at the dmv. it's the slowest and most stupid process ever! and then i get my license in the mail and i am now born two months later than what my mother remembers. i am thinking it's perhaps easier to go with that then attempt to get it changed to the correct day. maybe i can have two birthdays from now on....hmmm.... would that mean i would age faster?
The thing which has been the most difficult include the inability to secure any type of employment. this evokes much anxiety within me and pokes at much self-doubt and insecurities within me. i miss the security of being near family and being taken care of. the world seems much scarier when there isn't something set forth before me to accomplish. i have so many choices of direction it's overwhelming. if you haven't spoken with me in awhile you may not be aware that i hope to continue on in the field of psychology in the upcoming years. this will be either a 2 year degree or another 4-5 year. throw in questions of marriage and beginning a family and things begin to heat up a bit. is more school a good thing? is it what i am called to now? which program shall i apply? why can i not get a job? should i move back to iowa to get a job?
anyways....these are a few of my thoughts....a few pictures that you perhaps have seen before. i just felt like writing a bit and journaling some of my thoughts. i am now off for another interview at a university. i hope this one works out. it's in my field of study...and would be great experience. thanks for reading! more later.
i shall post a few pictures of the fun things i was truly blessed to be able to do.
this is a picture from the getty. it's a museum that is open to the public (free). it was in malibu, off the coast. a quaint place with some peaceful gardens and walkways. 
dan and i at the angels game. five dollar tickets! it was quite fun. though, i got annoyed that everyone obeyed the stupid signs that told them to clap and get louder. lets think for ourselves people!
a picture of the angels game. we also went to a dodgers game. we decided we like going to the game in anaheim better. we may be becoming orange county snobs. the stadium was nicer and easier to get to. we're totally not diehard fans....so if we got to choose to be fans of a local team....it would be the angels. 
dan and his friend steven. he's studying to become a priest. he's a pretty funny guy. he may have had too much sugar and so was a bit on the loopy side at times. but, i really enjoy him. he's a good friend to dan. 
my good friend, eunice, got married! eunice was one of my first (of four) roommates in california. faith (one of the other roommates) is on the far right in this picture. she's been dating the guy since i met her....and i was so happy to see them make the joining together official.
dan and i went to the beach quite a bit. i went surfing once (complete w/ an awesome wetsuit). it was amazing to watch the sunset while i was in the water. i really really loved all aspects of surfing. dan is a great help as i am sometimes still frightend of the powerful waves. other times we just laid out on the beach for a few hours and jumped in the water every now and then to cool down. i began to see why people like southern california.
we went to san luis obispo where dan went to school (at cal poly). we stayed at his professors house and went for a hike, walked to the beach and ate some good food. it's a great place to get away from the busyness of the city.
this is a professional soccer game at the rose bowl in pasadena. pretty sweet.... it was loud, full and fast paced. dan and his father thought it was boring....but, i found it quite interesting. i am beginning to like soccer much more than other sports. it's way more fun to watch. i went with dan, his dad, uncle and cousin. 
i look excited....but only because i was finally finished with my two full days at the dmv. it's the slowest and most stupid process ever! and then i get my license in the mail and i am now born two months later than what my mother remembers. i am thinking it's perhaps easier to go with that then attempt to get it changed to the correct day. maybe i can have two birthdays from now on....hmmm.... would that mean i would age faster? The thing which has been the most difficult include the inability to secure any type of employment. this evokes much anxiety within me and pokes at much self-doubt and insecurities within me. i miss the security of being near family and being taken care of. the world seems much scarier when there isn't something set forth before me to accomplish. i have so many choices of direction it's overwhelming. if you haven't spoken with me in awhile you may not be aware that i hope to continue on in the field of psychology in the upcoming years. this will be either a 2 year degree or another 4-5 year. throw in questions of marriage and beginning a family and things begin to heat up a bit. is more school a good thing? is it what i am called to now? which program shall i apply? why can i not get a job? should i move back to iowa to get a job?
anyways....these are a few of my thoughts....a few pictures that you perhaps have seen before. i just felt like writing a bit and journaling some of my thoughts. i am now off for another interview at a university. i hope this one works out. it's in my field of study...and would be great experience. thanks for reading! more later.
posted by lp at 12:51 PM
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