birthday.
it happened. i got old. it's the first birthday i haven't wanted to celebrate...and i actually dreaded instead of look forward to. see...25 is fine. but...get to 26 and that sounds old. seriously. 26? that's nearly 30. and...we all know that life is basically over at the age of 30. ok...perhaps slightly over dramatic. but is anyone with me in thinking that 26 sounds much older than 25? see...at 25 you can still get away w/ being "young." you hit 26...and you should really have made something of your life. whatever that means. all i know is that i probably haven't given the fact i am still in school and single. hence...my dread for the arrival of march.
but...today wasn't so bad. i slapped a smile on my face and decided to make the best of it. i skipped church in the am... and did a bit of reading and laundry. my roommate came home from church and gave me a sweet present. SHOES! they were perfect. i've been looking for some casual black shoes...and she found a perfect pair. they are black and white...and have fur on the inside. they are kinda like slippers...but...not. casual...but nice. they were honestly exactly what i wanted. then she pinned my hair up in like five minutes. it looked like i was going to prom. i just always wear my hair down...and so to have it up felt so odd.
then dan came and picked me up to take me to disneyland! (w/ everyone else and their mom...b/c the place was packed!) if you didn't know...this year at disney you can get in FREE on your birthday. b/c i have a season pass you can just get money...so i did. pretty sweet deal. FREE MONEY! i knew dan had made plans for dinner afterwards...but i didn't know that some of my friends were going to meet me there. i felt pretty special. lots of balloons tied to my chair...and some really good friends. not just people i knew...but, people i really cared about. i attached pictures below.
i also had many wall posts on facebook. yes...it's lame. but for some reason i felt really cared for by those comments. people thought of me! alot of people too. from all spectrums of life. old friends, new friends, people i knew last year, people that knew me from my birth, people that know me well, people that think they know me well, people that say silly things, people that say meaningful things,....just such a wide range. (dannah, julie, emily kallberg, sister, bro-in-law,
potter, melody, janet, rasley, mom, howard meadows, andrea herman, darin, kendra, pourio, faith, alex yoo, heather, jenna, sister, cousin, emilka, lauren, chris, kathly (2nd mom), dustin, kris, lindsay, inna, melody, scott, emily kac, sara haimes, tim, rachel, jackson, jeremey, joel, wes, cousin, jessica issen, alyssa, debi, matt, carly, kate, tina, anne, bender, brian, matt, david, aunt, nicole, erlinda, plunket, grace, leila, jenny)....most of the people that posted on facebook. as i wrote the names out i realized how many are from ISF (the program at school). if you are in this program you get pretty close. i am appreciative of them. most of these individuals i have had signifnact conversations with. this morning i prayed that God would surprise me. i also asked if he wanted to celebrate w/ me today... and if so how. i am taken back by all the friendships and relationships that are in my life. somedays i feel so low... but, days like this remind me i am not alone. even though i feel it intensely.
i may have more indepth thoughts at a later date...but...honestly...i am tired. so i am going to sleep. i am going to post a few more pictures from my everday life to give you a glimpse into my life...b/c i know that the people that look at this blog don't know what this looks like. i want to share that with you. i miss you guys! ok...i'm off...much love to you.
but...today wasn't so bad. i slapped a smile on my face and decided to make the best of it. i skipped church in the am... and did a bit of reading and laundry. my roommate came home from church and gave me a sweet present. SHOES! they were perfect. i've been looking for some casual black shoes...and she found a perfect pair. they are black and white...and have fur on the inside. they are kinda like slippers...but...not. casual...but nice. they were honestly exactly what i wanted. then she pinned my hair up in like five minutes. it looked like i was going to prom. i just always wear my hair down...and so to have it up felt so odd.
then dan came and picked me up to take me to disneyland! (w/ everyone else and their mom...b/c the place was packed!) if you didn't know...this year at disney you can get in FREE on your birthday. b/c i have a season pass you can just get money...so i did. pretty sweet deal. FREE MONEY! i knew dan had made plans for dinner afterwards...but i didn't know that some of my friends were going to meet me there. i felt pretty special. lots of balloons tied to my chair...and some really good friends. not just people i knew...but, people i really cared about. i attached pictures below.
i also had many wall posts on facebook. yes...it's lame. but for some reason i felt really cared for by those comments. people thought of me! alot of people too. from all spectrums of life. old friends, new friends, people i knew last year, people that knew me from my birth, people that know me well, people that think they know me well, people that say silly things, people that say meaningful things,....just such a wide range. (dannah, julie, emily kallberg, sister, bro-in-law,
potter, melody, janet, rasley, mom, howard meadows, andrea herman, darin, kendra, pourio, faith, alex yoo, heather, jenna, sister, cousin, emilka, lauren, chris, kathly (2nd mom), dustin, kris, lindsay, inna, melody, scott, emily kac, sara haimes, tim, rachel, jackson, jeremey, joel, wes, cousin, jessica issen, alyssa, debi, matt, carly, kate, tina, anne, bender, brian, matt, david, aunt, nicole, erlinda, plunket, grace, leila, jenny)....most of the people that posted on facebook. as i wrote the names out i realized how many are from ISF (the program at school). if you are in this program you get pretty close. i am appreciative of them. most of these individuals i have had signifnact conversations with. this morning i prayed that God would surprise me. i also asked if he wanted to celebrate w/ me today... and if so how. i am taken back by all the friendships and relationships that are in my life. somedays i feel so low... but, days like this remind me i am not alone. even though i feel it intensely.
i may have more indepth thoughts at a later date...but...honestly...i am tired. so i am going to sleep. i am going to post a few more pictures from my everday life to give you a glimpse into my life...b/c i know that the people that look at this blog don't know what this looks like. i want to share that with you. i miss you guys! ok...i'm off...much love to you.
posted by lp at 11:51 PM
1 Comments:
I'm sorry I didn't write on your wall. I did, however, send an sms. Do I get points for that? I was going to write on your wall, but I wanted to be different. I was also going to call you, but I got roped into babysitting and couldn't. I want to talk to you. We have to catch up. It's officially been too long since I've talked to you, and even WAY more too long since I've seen you. Unacceptable.
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